Hi. I’m an internet stranger who is trying to lose weight and become healthier. I am also trying to create more art. So I have magically fused the two initiatives together to make this blog.
My stats as of May 29, 2018:
Starting Weight: 278
Starting BMI: 50.8
I am 37 years old woman and have never been at a healthy weight. Eesh. That’s a tough sentence to write. Clearly I have no advice to give, so don’t follow my example, but feel free to peruse my posts if you’re into that sort of thing.
Despite my heavyset life, I have accomplished a lot and am overall happy with my life. Since having my son, I have mostly stopped hating myself because of my weight and have instead started trying to manage my weight rationally. I am thankful to my current obese body. It got me through high school, college, jobs, career, dating, marriage, and motherhood.
I didn’t use to feel that way. Most of my life I have felt resentment, hatred, and shame. Those emotions and judgements still creep up, but I’m better at recovering now.
Now I want to focus on getting healthy, and weight loss is the first step towards a healthy me. I’ve picked up a lot of bad habits over the years, so with this blog I’m trying to examine those patterns and attack them head on. I am also trying therapy for the first time in my life.
As far as the art goes, I grew up loving making art and even made it my major in college. My career is tangentially related to art, but doesn’t fulfill me creatively. There are no grand aspirations in my head about becoming an artist, no no no. I just want to create it for my own satisfaction. Sadly, I have let all art creation slip away since college because life. It’s still in me somewhere though, I hope.